Thursday, November 8, 2012

Life As I Know It...

Worn to work Wednesday, November 7




Dress-Old Navy/Blazer-Fox's/Shoes-Steve Madden/Jewelry-Target, F21, Lori's

I picked up this dress on a recent trip to Old Navy.  I have been on a versatile black dress...my two loft ones have begun to pill and fade...so I thought I would try this dress that I had seen advertised everywhere.  I am thinking it is going to be a fine substitute for my other dresses...

I need to get a few things out of my head, so I am going to spill, in hope it clears my mind so i can go back to being a functioning member of society...
I have been in denial these past few months...as of the end of next month I will unemployed. i will still be doing a bit of freelance work for my company, but not enough to call it a part-time job or anything. The last time I did not have a job, it was over 10 years ago and I did not have to worry about a mortgage, kids, a husband.  My coping mechanism back them would be pretty destructive now and I know better than to fall into old patterns.  But, I am having trouble dealing with my current situation.  I am 36 and I have 10 years and have had two jobs in my adult life, TV producer and advertising account executive, and now I am lost on what comes next.  I have considered working retail, but my wages would not be enough to cover a babysitter for Alex on the days he does not have school, so that is out.  I have applied for 13 advertising and marketing jobs with no luck so far.  I am lost and I just don't want to fall into a depression that I know all too well and lose my identity.  

Ok...so back to real life...there are dishes to be done and a kid to be picked up form school...

14 comments:

Megan, TfDiaries.com said...

great jacket, i love it with the all black
Xo Megan

Style Journey said...

So sorry to hear about the loss of your job. It's scary with the unknown, especially when you have a family. When my husband and I left our jobs last year to start the new business, it was the scariest time just because of the unknowns. Things always work out in the end. Maybe it will be an opportunity to start your own business? Best of luck! Heather

One Girl said...

Oh no! I am sorry to hear that. You'll find something! don't give up :)

Kimberly said...

My heart goes out to you. I was in Commercial Real Estate - an industry hit extra hard it seems during the recession. I lost two jobs in a matter of two years due to budget cuts/bankruptcy of the company. The first time I found a job with no problem, so the second time I wasn't so scared. Well, after sending out 40 resumes with only 1 interview I was scared sh*tless! I know how you are feeling. However, just when it got to be the end of my severence I got a contract job. Far from what I wanted, but it kept me off unemployment and closer to what I was used to in wages. Luckily that job lasted until I found a permanent position which I have loved since I started. Long story short - - it is scary, but everything works out in the end. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and I know it will all work out great for you!

Anonymous said...

I echo the others, it will be a scare but turn out fine in the end

kateprs said...

I'm really sorry to hear about your situation. I wish I had the words that would make everything better, but I don't :(

On a lighter note, if that's the new-ish dress from Old Navy, I just got it and love it! The way you styled it is so chic :)

Kate @ A Journey in Style

Shea Sayers said...

Although my experience has been in a completely different industry, I can totally relate. I've been trying for the last 7 years to figure out what I want to do, meanwhile making minimal pay working mostly temporary jobs trying to help my husband (who luckily has a steady job) make ends meet. I'm planning to take a huge financial risk by going back to school again. I'm also VERY ready to start a family but I don't know where that fits in either. So though my situation is different, girl, I FEEL ya. I know that things will work out. That's what I tell myself every day, and I know it will be the same for you. Hang in there :)

Emily said...

I am so sorry! I am sure there is MAJOR anxiety there. I hope something works out SOON for you! You look adorable in these picture, I love the touches of color.

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The Suburb Experiment said...

I think Shea up there said it best. I think you can only keep plugging away day by day. I totally know what you mean on the depression thing - I've been struggling a bit lately. Change is tough, even when it turns out to be for the best. Good luck my friend.

LyddieGal said...

Wow, that is really rough, I am so sorry to hear you've lost your job. Last time you didn't have kids and a husband, but maybe it's a good thing you've got them now. You have a support system, and I think things will work out.

I hope you find a new path that you love.

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Claire said...

i totally feel you. i'm sorry that you lost our job and i know it's so tough to find things and especially things that pay the bills. i find it kinda depressing myself since i was gaining momentum with my career and then i got pregnant. it just hasn't been the same since. but you'll find something and get through this, i know it. you're so strong and have already overcome so many things.

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Teal @ Expecting Chic said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through this. When we moved back to San Francisco, my husband went through a near 6 month period of unemployment and I tell you, it was hard to keep your chin up. However, with the resumes flowing and the recruiters on speed dial, it all came together in the end. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed for all of your resumes and I know things will be on the up and up soon! In the meantime, you can take solace in the fact that you look fabulous!! Hugs!

J9 STYLE said...

So sorry to hear about your job. Prayers being sent your way. I know a few people that have been through a similar situation and it turned out to be the unexpected best career change/move. In the meantime, use your great blog as an outlet.

dajana, all kinds of lovely said...

Hi Randi,

I'm so sorry you're going through such a rough time. Losing your job is never an easy thing and you're allowed to feel sad and scared and overwhelmed. I've lost my job a few times over the past 10 years (we're the same age)and I always seemed to end up in a better place than where I started. I believe that will happen for you, too.

Sending you hugs and positive thoughts from Canada!

xoxo Dajana